I found out more than I wanted to know about Menopause Symptoms
by Vera L
(West Hollywood, CA)
I went online about four years ago to research menopause. In retrospect, it must have been in the middle or a hot flash, because I live much of life in denial, and I was in no rush to get there. As a pre-teen, I lived in fear of “the curse.”
Now, at 47 years and 11/12 months, I wanted to see what the menopause equivalent word was. I was hoping the synonyms for menopause would be something nice, like “new beginning” or “blessing.”
Instead, I learned more than I ever wanted to know about hot flashes (yes, I had been having them for a least a few weeks), insomnia, discomfort during sex (if it even appealed to me), depression, night sweats and a number of other symptoms and feelings that sounded to me like the curse was just going to get worse.
Ah, the mixed blessing and curse of the Internet was giving me way too much information about something I didn’t want to know about. A couple of days later at work, one of the 20-somethings in accounting (was I ever like that? I hope not.) was saying she was afraid she might be pregnant. In very uncharacteristic style, I blurted out, “I don’t think I have to worry about that ever again.”
No one paid much attention (they probably thought I was 80 or 90), not in my late 40s, but it was a “Eureka” moment for me. Beginning menopause was actually a very freeing experience for me. It was almost as though I was finally a grown up who could worry about different things in life. Most importantly, I realized, I could worry less about things that really weren’t that important -- like if the 20-somethings at work thought I was old or not.